that great single awareness day is almost upon us and i'm still totally and utterly single... but you know what?  i don't really care this time.  the last 3 years i would probably get really depressed and say "oh valentine's day, blah blah blah" but something is different this year.  i don't really know what, but i've been happier lately and i think its a great thing.  nothing really has changed, but i think i've just been really working on my outlook on things and how i come across to other people.  i think i'm a more approachable person most of the time and the changes i've been making are good.  i've still only gone on 4 dates in the last 3 years, but who cares?  it's not my time yet obviously.  it is hard to wait around for something to happen, and i try not to do that, but you know.  i'm just really trying to look up... i think it's working