so i had another date... finally! he wasn't my first choice - but beggars can't be choosers, can they? i have been choosy, not that i've had a lot to choose from, but the guys that have been fortunate enough to take me out - haha jk - i haven't been all that interested in... i mean, it's a date and you need to give it a shot right? and why is it the ones that you thought were going to be good aren't interested in you?  i think i'm destined to be with a dorky nerd type, but do i have to?  i mean, i know i am one myself, but i guess we all dream for the "tall dark and handsome" bit.  well the last one was tall - really tall.  and really nice.  but i just wasn't feeling it.  he's a bit older than i am and has a few kids... but i don't think that was why.  maybe i'm just being too picky.  idk... he's already  wanting another date - and we're going with all the kids out tomorrow... why not right? the bishop did recommend him - as for other news, we've been going to church.  and it's been going pretty good. the little one has been great and seems to even love to be there.  good for us!

so as a single mom, something i kind of dreaded was going to church, or so that was my excuse.  the last couple of months i've been going pretty consistently and my child has actually been doing quite great in comparison.  i'm glad he makes things easy sometimes.  and he loves playing with other kids!  he has become quite the social butterfly - unlike me.  i mean, i get along with people really easy, but until i get to know someone i'm actually pretty shy.  so that doesn't really help my social situation either!  and now my bishop is ready to start matchmaking me and i just don't know how i feel about it.  the one he has mentioned asked me out this last weekend, and i'm still in the "why not" attitude so why not?  i wasn't available this weekend, but i'm sure we'll do something soon.  even though i already kind of know how i feel about him - or think i know, there's no reason not to give it a shot anyway.  i mean i seriously have been on two dates in the last year - well really last 3 years, but the first year and a half to two years, i really wasn't ready to date.  so here i am... i guess i'm ready now, but i think i need to stop looking.  isn't that when they start finding you?  i don't know.  being single in southern utah doesn't really work out so great.