i had some heart-breaking news last night... one of my greatest friends in the world is getting married in november, and that means that our plan to get married when we're both 30 and single is foiled! (that's not all the heart breaking news, but i'll keep that stuff to myself)  too bad i bawled and bawled last night...

on another note, you know what is never easy for me?  telling someone that you're not interested in them romantically... especially when you want to find a special guy and the guy is so nice, but just so not what you're looking for.  i feel like a jerk, but it is always so much better to be honest and upfront about these things.  it sucks, but i do feel better about the situation.  we went out tonight anyway after i told him i just wasn't interested in him that way, and it wasn't awkward or anything.  we went to dinner and a concert up in springdale (evolution - they are a local reggae band and pretty dang good too) you can check them out on facebook if you'd like.  but anyway.  it was nice to be social and run into some old friends from high school too. yeah for doing something on saturday night besides sitting at home on my lazy butt.  things are looking up, right? guess we'll see... i am starting to feel more and more like my old self again, so that's good.