i hate feeling this way because there is so much good in my life. my son is one of the best behaved kids - of course he has his moments, but who doesn't? he's so cute and loving. i have great family and friends and a job that i actually enjoy going to. i have a lot of help and support through family and friends. so why do i focus on the negatives so much? i guess its because its just there. i think its human nature to see the negative rather than the positive. that's how i was all through my athletic careers. there's always something to improve on and nothing ever really seems good enough. i'm going to try to do better to focus on the positive because i know that its there. put your best foot forward right?